billymilja

it was just before summerholidays when I got you. my best friend was at my place with her car and we drove over to your home and picked you up. you were so tiny, sitting there, just breathing. our bags were already packed, we left for ibiza the next morning. when I came back I spent the whole summer reading with you sitting on my knees, I could always feel your fast heartbeat. sometimes you closed your eyes a little bit as if you were in some kind of trance. then I would walk around with you in my arms glimpsing around. you grew very quickly and your fur always felt as if you were coming straight out of the dryer. I can still feel your fur in my palms.

you died out of the blue, a month before christmas, I just finished knitting my new jumper that day. I buried you behind the house, it was dark and cold and there were wet leaves everywhere on the ground. you were so special, I knew that right from the beginning.

that day before ibiza on our way home with you sitting in a little basket that I held in my arms, my friend asked me why I’ve chosen this name for you. I told her it’s a blessing. okay, she said, and what does it mean?

it means may happiness stay with you, always.

24/11/2015

© Sibyl Kurz